So after all this, you’ve lost all hope that your fire is ever going to come back.
There is a way out, but it’s not what you think. There is nothing wrong with you.
You’re not sick and you don’t need therapy. You don’t need people taking pity on you or fussing over how you feel.
There is something that you really want, deep inside. It hasn’t been permitted to see the light of day. But if you become aware of what this is - and set up your day to day life to bring it to light, your fire is going to return bright as day.